Friday, July 30, 2010

Call Me Crazy

It's Friday and I have a nice long weekend to look forward to!
I took Monday off's my birthday!

Okay, I realize that a lot of people are going to think I'm beyond crazy for even admitting this...and that's okay, you can think I'm crazy.
However, I woke up this morning and felt old! I'll be 27 Monday! 27 is NOT old! 27 is still...well, in your 20's! I can't explain it though, but I just felt old. I realized that I'm not far from my 30's 30 is not old either, but 30 is not 20 and it's also not far from 40.
I guess I'm just not ready to be 30 and 27 is too close for comfort.
I always thought I would have kids (if I ever) by 30...but now I don't know.
I always thought I would already be settled down by 30...but now I don't know.
I always thought I would FOR sure be finished with school before I'm 30....but now I don't know.
I always thought I would be in the job that I would retire from by I know I'm not!
I always thought that you pretty much had life figured out by I know I won't!

I know that in the big scheme of things age is just a number.
This is honestly the first time I've struggled with turning another year older. Weird. Is this what it's like to start dreading birthdays!?
and if I have one more person ask me how old I am and then "oh, so do you have kids" I'm going to scream.
I also don't want to hear anything about how I need to enjoy what I'm eating now because I won't have the same metabolism when I'm in my 30's (which REALLY stinks, because I wouldn't consider the metabolism I have now, in my 20's, anything to rave about! haha).
I also really want to go back to school....but I don't even want to think about still paying on student loans when I'm in my 40's!
Nope...27 is NOT cool with me!

I guess I just feel like there is still so much left to be done in my 20's, before I turn 30, and the sand in my hour glass is quickly running out!

I am volunteering with "Building Dreams" to be a mentor here in Richland county. I had a training meeting on Tuesday. The girl directing the class was talking about how we should, as mentors, try to relate to our mentee. She looked at the other two individuals in the classroom (this is after we had introduced ourselves and they both said they were juniors at USC) and said, "you guys probably won't have a problem with this, you're still young, hip, cool and "down with it""...then she looked at me and said "you're kind of in the same boat I am, we don't "get it" so we have a little more trouble in this area".

I just got lumped into the age category that "doesn't get it"...

Nope, 27 is not fun! However, I'm so thankful for all that I have and all that I have accomplished thus I won't complain (anymore!okay!)...bring on the birthday celebrations!!!!
I'll just remind myself that as much as I don't like turning 27, my poor mother has to deal with the fact that her child is turning 27!!! That has got to be even harder!!.....
I wonder what age category they would put her in....
KIDDING MOTHER, I'm just kidding!

Happy Friday, I hope everyone has wonderful weekend...regardless of age!


Meredith said...

Ok, that person at the training was MEAN!!! My students treat me like I "get it" and I'm older than you. (30 in a month, ugh.) All kidding aside, that really was inappropriate.

Please don't let yourself get bogged down. The devil would love to make you feel that your time is running out, but it isn't! You've had a wonderful 27 years, very full of life, and you're gonna have many more. Who says you have to do all those things by 30?

And I PROMISE you that NO ONE has "life figured out" by 30 or even 90. :)

All that said, I do know how you feel.

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Jackie said...

Happy Birthday

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